I want a new face

I don’t typically do this, but I shared this post since it shares a lot of London 2009 thoughts. Not much changes in two years, I guess! (Is it really 2012 already? Unreal.)

“Thousands of candles can be lighted from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”

What. Come back to that.

A week ago, I felt compelled to pick up my main European notebook– the one with my Shakespeare’s London notes, lists, anecdotes and drawings from our 2009 backpacking thing. It’s hard to extract anything that makes sense or is even remotely akin to a complete sentence. There are other scribbles in the middle things about Chabon’s wife, the usage of jewels or gemstones in poetry, Seneca’s  Phaedra, and some reference to Hot Chip’s “Look After Me.” Hold on. Okay.

‘Putting yourself at the center of your life’ is not so narcissistic after all –> state of neurosis –> need to make someone happy. ‘Rage. It’s your rage. It’s got nothing to do with me.’ Mistake #1: Putting a certain value on someone else’s worth. Mistake #2: Your life is not yours to give or take. Therefore, despair is a sin. 

Verbatim notes? Or maybe I was actually looking for something, because the half-page about “Radical Thirds” was seriously bugging me. Or maybe it’s the way the crazy professor loosely summarized his own life/sexual experiences through Jung, because this shit doesn’t really exist on the internet, beyond here: http://www.vantagequest.org/trees/comparative.htm#.TydmvlzLzhc I also don’t believe the professor meant it solely in the sense of creativity at the time.

Radical Third Theory: Settle down with someone with whom you’re most practically suited. You will then go off and meet your spiritual other half. 

From what I partially understood in that really arduous and ridiculous article, “creativity [is] a process through which the individual finds relationship with the environment.” And this in itself has been bothering me lately, but guhhh. What the HELL am I talking about? I guess what I’m trying to say is that my professor’s idea is depressing by itself. After reading Jung’s and Freud’s respective sexualized opinions on the matter of creativity, it’s even worse. This needs further examining.

The first quote was pulled from Facebook from a person I met only once in really weird circumstances. I agree and disagree. Happiness may not decrease in sharing, but it would certainly morph. Because, ultimately, it can’t be felt as the same thing, (if it can be felt at all.) You can have one thousand candles of different shapes, but you’re still only holding one candle. And I think I desperately want to hold two.

I am a child!